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eighthphase) wrote2012-02-04 12:15 pm
eighthphase) wrote2012-02-04 12:15 pm
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Today I logged onto Facebook then had to immediately log out because the first thing I see is my friends posting pics of them all sitting around at a table last night playing computer games or whatever, hanging out and just being around each other, even if they're all doing something different.
Last night I was sitting around playing Mass Effect.
At home.
By myself.
Because apparently I don't have friends anymore.
I would feel whiny and pathetic if this were the first time, maybe, but it isn't even close to that. I get that I'm supposed to just trust that there are people who actually like me and that I'm not some unlikeable forever alone loser, but it's really hard to do that when all the evidence points to the latter.
Last night I was sitting around playing Mass Effect.
At home.
By myself.
Because apparently I don't have friends anymore.
I would feel whiny and pathetic if this were the first time, maybe, but it isn't even close to that. I get that I'm supposed to just trust that there are people who actually like me and that I'm not some unlikeable forever alone loser, but it's really hard to do that when all the evidence points to the latter.