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Slept in for half an hour and... I'm still stupidly tired. D: And then my brain hit me with plotbunnies in the form of dreams I actually remember, and it's like... no. I have three arcs left to outline and college applications to finish before November, I don't have time to write a Final Fantasy VII AU. (I don't even write FF7.)

At least I don't have fourth today! I do need to talk to my English teacher about helping her out during fourth, though... but not today. Maybe tomorrow; I need something to do during fourth so I can go to the swing club meeting after school, anyway.

Okay, English homework and then food. Maybe I'll feel more awake after that x_x;

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I just spent the last hour and a half watching a documentary about the Apollo astronauts, at the recommendation of my da; he's seen it like a million times, and thought he'd let me know it was on again so that I might watch it, since I'm so into that kind of thing. So basically I spent the last hour and a half on the verge of tears, except for when I was actually crying (which happened more than a couple of times), because seriously? It was powerful. It was moving. I realised that going in and even though I hate crying, I don't hate it right now at all. I don't regret it at all.

I'm only seventeen, and everyone's telling me, "It's okay if you don't know what you want to do! Everybody changes their minds about it!" (A little hypocritical of them, but that's neither here nor there.) And I used to be glad to hear that, because it made me feel better about myself, about how I didn't know what I wanted to do. But now, finally, I know, and I don't think I'm going to change my mind about it.

I want to write, and I want to see humanity reach out and take hold of our future out there, because that's where our future is. (I'm not going to make Star Trek references, because everybody does that and I think I've already used up my life's supply of them, between this icon and this tag. But, as someone raised on science fiction, the sentiment is there.) If I can just do that, I'll be the happiest person ever. And if I can, somehow, play a part in making that happen, however large or small a part it may be, I'll never regret a thing.