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Totes just saw a FFXIII commercial. It was actually kind of painful, since I 1) can't afford it right now and 2) wouldn't really be able to play it if I could, since dad's decided to start being possessive of the PS3. |: At least I can fawn over the guide and still have the money for Soul Silver.

Stayed home today. Nobody can really bitch this time, what with the 100 degree fever I was running and all. Even after taking like 3 Advil it's only down to about 98, which is supposed to be normal but... isn't normal for me. I think I missed some very important things in English class; I'll just have to catch up later. If I'm lucky, later means tomorrow and not a few days from now. :/

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It's almost strange how music affects us. Or maybe I just mean me. Or maybe I just mean how songs I'm fiercely attached to make me cry half the time. I don't even know.

For instance, on Saturday, the entire reason I wanted to play Kingdom Hearts was because I'd had a dream where I was watching an AMV with the instrumental version of Hikari. I woke up crying that morning, but I was determined to play KH1 and hear it again, so that's what I did. It's not the first time that song's made me cry, either, and that's not the only version that does it; I've got the full remix of Hikari and I'm blubbering right now. Not because I associate the song with sadness or anything like that; it's just... moving.

I do, however, associate it with other things. And this goes for a lot of different songs, too. When I listen to certain songs, I tend to remember what I was doing when I first listened to them, or some other strong memory. Like Lost Heaven, whenever I listen to that I remember playing Colour By Numbers on my old Mac in the dark. The game cut of Hikari nets me the opening FMV of BBS, and I think of the opening FMV of KH1 with the game cut of Simple and Clean. Rolling Star by yui is another one that gets me teary, sometimes, through a combination of that particular Bleach opening seeming almost desperate-like, and my always being only half-awake whenever I heard it. I'm sure again will have a similar connotation in my head, once I almost fall asleep before more episodes of Brotherhood.

It's not always a bad thing, I don't think. Music is powerful, really, and there's certainly nothing bad about remembering, say, concerts or games when I hear a certain song. Other times, lyrics (or basslines or drumbeats or the fiddle or piano parts) are just beautiful. Or they hit close to home; there's this one Paramore song I can't really listen to because it reminds me too much of myself.

...and speaking of yui, I think I'm going to have to listen to more of her stuff, because I really like her voice.