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So I finished my speech; not so much the research paper, but I did buy myself more time to write that, so... I'm hoping it works out. Even if it doesn't, it's just a rough draft, so I think it's okay.

I managed to condense five pages of outline into five notecards. This might sound impressive, except that I think I talk more with less-detailed notes than I do with the exact outline. /: I mean, I'm probably going to be talking faster when I'm actually presenting, but I'd at least like to be around seven minutes - not only is that the max, but it's what I used in the intro. (I went with the Star Trek intro - I couldn't help it.) I'm a bit worried my speech is less about just returning people to the moon and more about building a base there, but... I can't separate the two in my head, not really. Building a base just seems like the next step.

I kind of wish I had more time; there's a lot more that I could talk about, if I did. But then, that would make this more of an informative/persuasive speech than just a persuasive one... I mean, the whole point of talking about space is to get people interested, so that they start talking about space, and to do that you need to be informative, so... But then part of me feels like I'm treading over familiar ground, and not really in a good way... Although, I kind of am; didn't I give a similar speech four years ago? (Yes, I did.) It feels like all of this is so basic, and really obvious; but maybe it's only obvious to me, since I already know it all.

If I could capture the enthusiasm I had last night while writing this - and there was a lot of enthusiasm; I was bouncing around and bounding up and down the hallway to write a few more words, then go out and talk to my mum about it some more - I imagine that would help a lot. I mean, space is exciting! Building a moon base is exciting! All the stuff we could potentially gain is exciting! But how do I make other people see that?

I suppose I just do the best I can. That's really all I can do, isn't it?

(And then once I'm done with this I get to write about dude-bro assholes in the gaming industry... yeah, that's going to be fun. /: I just don't like today, okay?)

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Three hours of "I hate this fucking paper omg" led into ten nerve-wracking minutes of "omg omg omg please let him not think it sucks overly much" led into five minutes of "you know, you could totally do this other thing that would be about 100x easier".

I'm not even kidding. I spent three hours trying to write my research paper, ended up with half a draft to take to my meeting with my professor, and after he looked over it a bit he suggested that instead of trying to primarily focus on the work aspect, I should focus on the sexism aspect instead. That's what I had been trying to avoid doing, as I'd felt that my topic's ties to the chapter on work were tenuous enough as it was, but he's right; it should be a lot easier on me. Although I'm sure that I'll have more research tabs open now than I did for my moon speech; I mean, I've got almost the same number open now, and I need to do even more research...

On one hand, doing research is pretty cool. On the other, it's really frustrating when I'm trying to find stuff that apparently isn't all that common. On the... foot, I guess (since I haven't got a third had and all) I also get distracted really easily, haha. So I get to read all kinds of interesting stuff but then it turns out that not very much of it is stuff I can actually use.

Also! Since I mentioned the speech I suppose I should write more about that, especially considering my post from this morning. Anyway, I think it went okay; I got full points for it and mostly positive comments from the professor (on the rubric; we didn't have time for her to actually discuss our speeches in class, unfortunately). I won't know how the rest of the class felt about it until Tuesday, since that's when I'll get the peer review sheets back. I don't even know how long I ended up speaking for...

At any rate, I have no reason to stress out for the next two days, and I'm going to specifically try not to, in fact. Stress about needing lab hours? Nope! Stress about interviewing someone? Not even! It'll all work out, I'm sure. (Although I do need to go over to my high school and talk to one of my old English teachers... who will likely berate me for taking the lazy route out, but that's... kind of what I do. /:

I should make a to-do list of all the stuff I have to finish...