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Monday, 7 June 2010 01:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eighthphaseToday I came to the realisation that I don't care what Neeth wants me to do with my portion of our project, because it's not hers. It's not her material and she's not presenting it; I am. So I'm going to do what I want to do, and not worry about what she wants me to do.
It would have been nice if it hadn't taken her pissing me off so much that I had to just leave the room so I wouldn't make a scene to realise this, much less if today weren't the day before our presentation, but I guess I'll take what I can get. Maybe I cry when I'm really angry because it's my body's way of making my mind realise that, whatever it is, it is so not worth the drama and the stress. Of course, I'd like it better if I had some other way of realising that, because crying sucks and I don't like doing it, but I guess it just can't be helped. I've calmed down a lot since this morning, at least, and being at home for a few hours before having to deal with Neeth again should help, too.
I'm pretty sure she spent brunch whining at Santillan about me (well, it helps that I was in the room at the time) but I don't even care at this point. If she tries to passive-aggressively whine at me like before, she's going to be totally screwed, because however negatively she thinks I've been acting toward her, I've been polite so far. If she pisses me off again, that's going to change.
(Most of the time I think that horoscopes have my personality totally wrong, but then things like this happen and I really do start acting like a stereotypical Aries.)
Anyway, twenty minutes for slides, and then forty minutes on castle drawing, because I really do need to finish that. It looks relatively decent so far, but I need to put in a lot more detail, and I'm going to try to shade it, a little bit.
It would have been nice if it hadn't taken her pissing me off so much that I had to just leave the room so I wouldn't make a scene to realise this, much less if today weren't the day before our presentation, but I guess I'll take what I can get. Maybe I cry when I'm really angry because it's my body's way of making my mind realise that, whatever it is, it is so not worth the drama and the stress. Of course, I'd like it better if I had some other way of realising that, because crying sucks and I don't like doing it, but I guess it just can't be helped. I've calmed down a lot since this morning, at least, and being at home for a few hours before having to deal with Neeth again should help, too.
I'm pretty sure she spent brunch whining at Santillan about me (well, it helps that I was in the room at the time) but I don't even care at this point. If she tries to passive-aggressively whine at me like before, she's going to be totally screwed, because however negatively she thinks I've been acting toward her, I've been polite so far. If she pisses me off again, that's going to change.
(Most of the time I think that horoscopes have my personality totally wrong, but then things like this happen and I really do start acting like a stereotypical Aries.)
Anyway, twenty minutes for slides, and then forty minutes on castle drawing, because I really do need to finish that. It looks relatively decent so far, but I need to put in a lot more detail, and I'm going to try to shade it, a little bit.
