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Friday, 10 December 2010 03:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
eighthphaseSo I guess that, since I got accepted to East Bay, I have to actually start reading the things that they send me. (Provisional admission, anyway, so I guess that means I shouldn't totally fail physics class even though I kind of want to. /le sigh)
Also I just saw the music video for Na Na Na, and I have to say, Gerard Way looks pretty good with red hair.Speaking of Gerard Way with red hair! I guess I'll get to see it in person tonight, since I'm going to Not So Silent Night, if under admittedly awkward circumstances. ...though I'm not sure I have much room to complain, since I'm basically going for free. /: I mean, not that it's not cool and all, it's just... I wish Ruchia were coming. Usually I go to concerts with her and her mum, and it's cool, because Ruchia and I have known each other since third grade. The school's winter dance is tonight, which... not a problem, I mean, My Chemical Romance and Smashing Pumpkins? That's way cooler than some school dance. Except this year we have a ~*~winter court~*~ and Ruchia's on it. And she'd rather go to the concert, but she has to be at the dance, because she's on the court. (Never mind the fact that the girl most likely to win winter queen isn't going to be at the dance.) I'm still going, so far as I know, just with her mum and one of her mum's friends.
Which is totally not awkward at all, and by totally not awkward I mean I don't think it could possibly be more awkward. (Except maybe if I were going with her mum and dad. That might be more awkward.) Like I said, though, I don't know if I can really complain, because, hey, free concert. Her mum has refused to let me pay for concert tickets, even when I offer. (Which was every time until I realised her answer wasn't changing, and even then I still thank her like a million times because seriously, concert tickets are kind of expensive.) I mean, I should just be glad I get to go at all, right? Anything else would be ingratitude, even if they knew when the concert was for over a month and even if I thought Ruchia was coming as well until, like, yesterday. That's what I'm thinking, but I could be wrong.
I can't help but feel that it's like going to concerts alone, though. I mean, I used to talk all about the incredible power of the crowd and the performers, but the truth is that I've never actually felt that; I just can't get over my sense of self and lose myself in the mood of the crowd. I feel like no matter what I do I'm acting like a total idiot, and that I'm being judged by absolutely everybody. You'd think it'd be impossible to feel so alone while surrounded by so many people, but I somehow seem to manage it every time.
...I guess apprehensive is the best word for how I feel right now. I guess it doesn't help that I've had a weird week anyway, emotion-wise.
And, feel free to ignore all of that now, since - after waiting apprehensively for the past two hours! - I've learned that Ruchia's mum is ill, so we're not actually going to the concert. Two hours wasted! But I feel better now, since I know what's actually going on.
Also I just saw the music video for Na Na Na, and I have to say, Gerard Way looks pretty good with red hair.
Which is totally not awkward at all, and by totally not awkward I mean I don't think it could possibly be more awkward. (Except maybe if I were going with her mum and dad. That might be more awkward.) Like I said, though, I don't know if I can really complain, because, hey, free concert. Her mum has refused to let me pay for concert tickets, even when I offer. (Which was every time until I realised her answer wasn't changing, and even then I still thank her like a million times because seriously, concert tickets are kind of expensive.) I mean, I should just be glad I get to go at all, right? Anything else would be ingratitude, even if they knew when the concert was for over a month and even if I thought Ruchia was coming as well until, like, yesterday. That's what I'm thinking, but I could be wrong.
I can't help but feel that it's like going to concerts alone, though. I mean, I used to talk all about the incredible power of the crowd and the performers, but the truth is that I've never actually felt that; I just can't get over my sense of self and lose myself in the mood of the crowd. I feel like no matter what I do I'm acting like a total idiot, and that I'm being judged by absolutely everybody. You'd think it'd be impossible to feel so alone while surrounded by so many people, but I somehow seem to manage it every time.
...I guess apprehensive is the best word for how I feel right now. I guess it doesn't help that I've had a weird week anyway, emotion-wise.
And, feel free to ignore all of that now, since - after waiting apprehensively for the past two hours! - I've learned that Ruchia's mum is ill, so we're not actually going to the concert. Two hours wasted! But I feel better now, since I know what's actually going on.