eighthphase

Is it acceptable these days to hear somebody talking about group plans they have and just be all, "Hey can I come too?" I am actually honestly curious, because I really have no idea. I always thought that it was supposed to be rude to do that, so whenever my friends talk about plans they have with each other I'm always just "Oh yeah that's, uh, that's cool," all awkwardly, buuuut it seems that my friends always make plans with each other that never ever involve me in any capacity whatsoever, so I'm always having to be "Yeah, that's totally milkshake" when I actually think that it is totally not milkshake at all.

I mean, maybe they never think to ask me because whenever I am actually invited to something I usually end up not going, or having to leave for some reason. So maybe they just don't ask me because they think, "Oh, she's probably not going to come anyway." Which, okay, yeah, there's a good chance that that might actually be the case. And sometimes I don't go because I don't want to go, which... yeah, okay, that's not so shiny of me, but I am after all an introvert at heart. I don't always want to be around people. So, somehow, it always works out that when I am invited to things it's when I don't want to be around people, but when I think that hanging out would actually be totally awesome, everybody else has plans, and by the way, you're not invited.

So yeah, I don't know if nobody ever invites me to things because I never make them invite me to things, or if nobody ever invites me to things because they would rather have fun without me.

(This post brought to you by a person I hate inviting all my friends to her house to go watch films I don't want to see. It's not actually about that particular invitation! It's just that seeing her do that reminded me of all the other invitations I never got from people I actually like to do things I actually did want to do.)